Home, sweet home

I'm back! 


Thanks so much to my beautiful sister for keep you all amused whilst I've been without internet. She's done a fantastic job. I must admit that I was a little teary when I read her post, "The Lion", for the first time. Other people always see you differently to how you see yourself. She's a delightful and quirky little soul and I love her very much. I'm so lucky to have her. 


I've had an incredible trip away with Mum that I think will be really life changing. I have written a lot over the past 6 days and I can't wait to edit, organise and polish it all into a series of fantastic posts. I love it when you go away on holidays and it leaves you motivated and inspired to be a better version of yourself, appreciative of all the wonderful things you already have and excited for the opportunities on the horizon. 


There is nothing quite like getting away from your everyday life. Before I went away I was exhausted and overwhelmed. I undertook an overload last semester in order to complete my degree in the time frame I wanted, which was mainly a good thing. I do like to be busy, but it did make for a fairly stressful exam period. At the same time some very complicated political events were taking place at work and due to what you could probably call a "conflict of interests" I more or less had to resign. 


Things with my parents' work were just out of control and making home a less than enjoyable place to be. The pressure cooker environment of stress had reached boiling point for me and I was really starting to lose hope in my ability to achieve the things I want to. Everyone is busy these days and I find it really hard to lean on people when I'm going through a rough time when you know their plate is already pretty full. I couldn't perceive that anyone around me was available to help me conquer my demons and no one likes feeling like a burden. 


Getting away from the stress, guilt, drama and frustration was exactly what I needed. As Haley Dunphy from 'Modern Family' said, "Everyone has their stuff". Whatever the source, symptoms or magnitude of your struggles, anyone can fall into trap of being consumed by them. There is the old adage that says to "remember that someone is always worse off than you". Whilst this is true, I think it is better advice to listen to someone else's struggles and let yourself think about someone other than your self. You gain the perspective without the guilt.


A little perspective from stepping outside your usual environment can go a long way. My problems haven't disappeared, but I now feel far better equipped to deal with them and I've had a chance to step outside my own head. 


Also, It is so refreshing to be reminded that you are usually capable of so much more than you think you are. Our own self-perception can be exceptionally limiting.


I feel fantastic after my little 'adventure' and I'm so grateful I got to share so much quality time with my wonderful Mum. I met some truly wonderful people and I am looking forward with great anticipation to telling you all about it.

J