What's on the horizon?

The past few days I've tried my hardest to relax. Since I started uni this year I have been filled with angst and paranoia and for a few days I have left my books alone and tried to keep all tertiary education/ future life path/ direction/ meaning/ purpose as a human being related thoughts out of my head. 

Stressing out is not my natural state of being and I'm not enjoying it one bit.  Sadly, having given myself a few days off, I must now face all things uni again. There are a couple of assignments that must be taken care of whilst I have a split second to think before the week-in-week-out onslaught begins again.

I have placement this coming weekend which is freaking me out. I have to keep telling myself that it is just 2 days, even though I don't know what time doing the people I'll be with will and that I will survive it. There is no two ways about it, I'm shit scared.

On a different note, next Thursday I will have my graduation ceremony for my Bachelor of Arts. I like that I'll finally officially be a Monash graduate but it does seem a little weird to be signed, sealed and delivered for one course that I loved whilst trying to work out whether or not I'll proceed beyond completing semester 1 for this one.

I slept in till 11am then went on a 6.6km run/ jog with both my siblings. I am not a runner. The single thing I like about running is how efficient it is. It is the kind of workout where no time is wasted, my heart rate is high the entire time and I'm exerting myself from start to finish. I do not enjoy the actual process of running at all, but my fitness improves so quickly when I go regularly. I never think I'm going to get back to the start without stopping and it hurts almost the whole time but that I why I feel like I've accomplished something every time I make it back home.

I also played 9 holes of golf with my Dad, my brother and my Grandpa. I think it was probably the best 9 holes I've played to date. My last couple of outings have been pretty horrendous so it was nice to feel slightly less like a hack than usual! My favourite moment was when I hit off the tee with my 7 iron and landed it just on the edge of the green. It was only on a par 3 and I hit a fair share of beginner player's rubbish throughout as well, but its moments like that that really make me want to become a competent player.